Auspicious Muse

Friday, August 12, 2011

Marco Tempest: The magic of truth and lies (and iPods) | Video on TED.com

The Fountain (Sigur Ros)

This film, "The Fountain" is a beautiful example of how we must accept suffering to move on. This video that was made, happened to be perfectly paired with music by Sigur Ros. Amazing.

Thursday, August 11, 2011

It's never too late to show up to life

So, last night I faced my introvertness and wandered off to Solana Beach, CA to The Belly Up Tavern. I've been wanting to go to this venue for awhile now and so, when I made the decision at 5pm yesterday, I just did it. What I am discovering is that I experience a feeling (or emotion--whatever you call it) and whether it is elated or down and out, I remind myself that these are conditions that occur as being human. Best thing, personally, is to face them--head on. I felt uneasy and a little shy about arriving to this event last night alone. I did a little deep breathing in my car before I got out (go ahead and visualize the dorkiness) and then I floated over to the entrance and just walked in and said 'I am alone and I feel very shy right now' in my head. As soon as I acknowledged it, I found myself talking to someone minutes later. As the night went on, and I became quiet happy being 'alone' I found that I was taking on the form of a people magnet. It's almost strange to sit here and see it in my mind's eye and then regurgitate it into writing. The number of people that I was aligned with and the running into someone I knew and someone I've wanted to know--it just was magical. The friendly connection from the bass player--who saw me from the stage, to the chatting with the yoga instructor who was extremely modest about his teaching, to sharing my opinion about the acrobatic yoga performance, to winning a raffle prize (yes, I won a raffle for the first time in my life)--okay and it was for 5 Life Coach lessons! It continues, to recognizing Lori from Indah leather wraps AND that I happened to be wearing one that was sadly draping off my wrist; Lori pulled it off, stabbed the strap with her earring and went and added a new button to make it 'fit' me again! BTW, Lori is incredibly talented and I actually bought an amazing crystal wrap bracelet off of her wrist a few months ago!! And then, there was the group of ladies who were admiring my tree of life tattoo and my crazy red dress and how it 'framed' my art; okay--and to my surprise, one of those ladies was (drum roll)--Tristan Prettyman (scream!). The girl had me at 'Hello.' She actually said she wanted to pick me up and twirl me around and I was pretty much dying (happily) on the inside. So, this little post does not do the energy justice from last night, but none the less, it is the best I can do to share and give thanks to the giving Universe. I'm open and will remain open.

Lovin Yourself Video....Avasa & Matty Love...video by Hiero

The Universe gave me a gift last night. I chose to show up, alone and found that I wasn't alone at all. This incredible couple; Avasa & Matty Love enveloped the entire audience with their unconditional love and I was so moved by their music and message. There was no where else to be....

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Changing My Story

I'm not sure what chapter I am on, but I am certain I need to change my story if I want to believe in a happy ending vs. the tragic love stories I used to like reading about. Seriously (or not seriously)--the story I've told myself for the last several years is that some people have a 'charmed' life and others, like myself, just don't. I also have convinced myself that I tend to be more creative in a melancholy state. Okay, this story is not working for me anymore. I accept that suffering is a part of life, but that doesn't mean I have to hold on to it and be a closet EMO so, enough is enough. I can feel pain and clinging, as long as I just acknowledge it and then move on. I guess the story line doesn't need definition, but the conclusion is that 'change' is the story so, I am going to be 'in change' and not cling to the negative chapters and feel like I have to deal with some made up hand of cards I've defined myself having. Anyways, these are my thoughts right now. I noticed that I was really trying to move back into a slump and found myself tearing up at random parts of the day and realized that my mind was just trying to cling to sadness. Enough already--I know I have much to be thankful for and my goodness--I'm moving in 8 days, how exciting!!! Breathe.