Changing My Story

I'm not sure what chapter I am on, but I am certain I need to change my story if I want to believe in a happy ending vs. the tragic love stories I used to like reading about.  Seriously (or not seriously)--the story I've told myself for the last several years is that some people have a 'charmed' life and others, like myself, just don't. I also have convinced myself that I tend to be more creative in a melancholy state.  Okay, this story is not working for me anymore.  I accept that suffering is a part of life, but that doesn't mean I have to hold on to it and be a closet EMO so, enough is enough.  I can feel pain and clinging, as long as I just acknowledge it and then move on.  I guess the story line doesn't need definition, but the conclusion is that 'change' is the story so, I am going to be 'in change' and not cling to the negative chapters and feel like I have to deal with some made up hand of cards I've defined myself having.  Anyways, these are my thoughts right now.  I noticed that I was really trying to move back into a slump and found myself tearing up at random parts of the day and realized that my mind was just trying to cling to sadness.  Enough already--I know I have much to be thankful for and my goodness--I'm moving in 8 days, how exciting!!!  Breathe.